Again I’m watching you while you’re walking away, sinking into my thoughts…
I remember the first time we've met. I've never been so afraid of someone before.
At first - like always - I felt just lost here at school. But something was a bit strange for me. You were so friendly and caring; I don’t know why I was so irritated because of that.
After a while I started to recognize that you are the kind of person, I had always wanted to be. I started to feel attracted to you and I trusted you so much like I've never trusted anyone else for a long time.
I’ve tried a lot to get closer to you although I knew it would be pointless. Sometimes I even thought you were avoiding me.
I did a lot just to see and observe you – sometimes while you were walking away, hoping you would turn around, look at me and smile.
Whenever I think of you, I feel so lonely and empty. And if I try to forget you, I feel lost and forlorn as I used to in the past. And I fear that I will be alone forever and will never find somebody who makes me feel glad to be alive.
The time when my heart started racing when I saw you has already gone by, but still I can’t stop thinking of you and wanting to be with you.
I fear the day I won’t see you anymore and lose my reason to get up every day.
And this day is coming closer and closer...
…Now I’m standing in a tram, watching how you are getting smaller and smaller till’ I lose sight of you…